Dreaming in Iambic Pentameter

March 26, 2007

Like Mother, Like Daughter…

Filed under: Family Stuff — Anna M Evans @ 6:41 pm

Yesterday Becky competed in her first Level 5 Sectional. In order to qualify for the NJ Level 5 State Championship she needed an All Around score of 32. (Bear with me: the math isn’t hard, and it is crucial.)

Unfortunately, her first event was Vault, the event at which she has consistently produced the lowest scores. Even more unfortunately, she did her worst yet, pulling in a 6.4.

Well, that’s that, I thought. She’d have to get an average of over 8.5 on the other 3 events to score a 32. She had only scored over 8.5 twice: once on Bars and once on Beam, but NOT at the same meet. Might as well sit back (on the most uncomfortable wooden bleachers ever invented by mankind) and enjoy the show.

Second event was Uneven Bars, and she made an 8.4. Pretty good, really. That ended up earning her fifth place in her age group, but clearly still off target for the 32. Still, I figured she’d be happy with that and it wouldn’t be entirely doom and gloom in the car going home afterward.

Third event was Balance Beam, typically her best event. She performed amazingly well–the cartwheel had a wobble but everything else looked good, and as her coach said later, she has this beautiful high relevee which gets her great scores for form. Even so, I was thrilled to see the scoreboard flash up 8.75. Time to do some mental arithmetic.

6.4 + 8.4 + 8.75 = 23.55

That left her needing 8.45 on her Floor exercise to qualify. Her highest Floor score this season has been 8.1. Now, the team has been working hard on Floor, and I knew she could score more than 8.1, but 8.45 might be asking a little much. Everything was looking good, and then she stepped out of bounds. I’m never sure what the deductions are, but I figured that would settle it.

And then the scorer flashed up 8.55.

Child of my body, my blood, my heart. Stealer of my sleep. Miracle of my dreams.

Of course, she didn’t know she’d qualified at that point, not having done the math, but I had the privilege of watching her face as her coach told her. What joy!

And now I think some links to Becky poems are in order:

“Becky’s Questions”
“Lullaby in Glose Form”
“On Being Asked by My Daughters Why There Has Never Been a Woman President”
“Canzone for my Daughter, the Gymnast”

March 23, 2007

…and Little Fleas Have Lesser Fleas…

Filed under: Poetry — Anna M Evans @ 8:23 am

Sometimes, Pobiz seems to be simply a matter of scale.

Wednesday was a poetry packed day for me. I prepared for, and taught an hour’s class, and I gave a featured reading in the evening. Sure, the class was my daughter’s fourth grade homeroom, and we studied that lofty verse form, the limerick. And yes, the reading was a twenty five minute set in a cosy suburban library. Still, the structure of the day felt very similar to that of a ‘proper’ poet, so why am I out of sorts?

It certainly wasn’t the fourth graders, who were simply great; they threw all their energy into the project of discovering the limerick beat. How better to learn the basics of meter? And by the end of the hour they collaborated on four surprisingly good limericks. Here’s my favorite, by Nelson, Eric, John, Devon and Tyler.

There once was an ape in my closet
It needed to go on a diet
It wanted a hat
But its head was too fat
So we told the fat ape to be quiet

Note the slant rhyme. Way to go boys!!

The reading was also an excellent experience. First of all, Tom Kelly, the head of Skin Radio, had come with the express intention of meeting me. He was very complimentary about the poems I have currently playing on the station and told me they seem to be the ones people remember. (Of course, that’s mainly the accent.) He asked me for some more, and also outlined a plan he has to host an event in Philadelphia this summer combining poetry and music, which he would like me to attend.

Then I read my poems. As it was a new venue for me I was able to put together a strong reading of all my favorites, including the Pushcart Prize nominations, the Howard Nemerov sonnet and the Writer’s Digest winner, as well as more recent stuff. This was particularly important because I had prevailed upon my husband to video the reading. (I am applying to be a Dodge ‘Poet Among Us’ for 2008, and they requested a video of me reading.) I felt like the audience was rapt, and I sold three chapbooks immediately after the reading, which just about cleaned me out. I have re-ordered from Maverick Duck Press.

Tonight there is even more poetry. It’s the Release Party for the 2007 issue of Up & Under, the journal of the Quick & Dirty Poets, and I am m/c’ing. We always like to have a bit of fun at the party so we read each other’s poems rather than our own. I have chosen several of Kendall’s and am looking forward to delivering them in his unique, self-deprecating style.

So why am I sitting here, on what promises to be a warm spring day, feeling like the middle of January?

I guess it is because, although poetry IS a matter of scale, it seems to me that the different universes have no overlap, rather like the way you can’t hook up the railway tracks of different gauge models.

I AM a ‘poet among us.’ Although it would be gratifying, I don’t need the Dodge Festival’s approval to confirm that. But can I ever be a ‘poet among them?’ Probably not, MFA notwithstanding. It feels like I’m the big, plastic engine the toddler can play with, and ’proper’ poets are the finely detailed die-cast metal trains the collectors have in their attics.

In fact, the very idea is just laughable, isn’t it?

 

March 20, 2007

Notices & News

Filed under: In Corpore Sano, Poetry — Anna M Evans @ 6:50 pm

I have been very busy lately, and I am sure many people are thrilled to hear that I have mostly caught up with the backlog in Barefoot Muse submissions. However I should probably let you know about a few events that are happening this week.

Tomorrow night I’m a featured reader at Arlene Bernstein’s Spring Equinox Poetry Celebration. This will begin at 7 p.m. at Belmont Hills Library in Bala Cynwyd. (Why do so many places around Philadelphia have Welsh names?) You can read more about the Friends of Poetry series on Arlene’s Website.

On Friday the Quick & Dirty Poets will host a launch party for Issue #3 of our poetry journal, Up & Under. This will be at the Daily Grind coffee shop in Mount Holly, also beginning at 7 p.m.

I had two poems accepted by the Mad Poets’ Review, which is really cool because I love going to their issue release party in the Fall. I also got my contributor’s copy of the Lyric, and Modern Metrics are planning to schedule me a reading in September/October.

Oh, and my surgery is scheduled for April 5th. Well, it couldn’t all be good news now, could it?

March 11, 2007

Popular Poetry, a Grass Roots View

Filed under: Poetry — Anna M Evans @ 8:17 pm

A new war could well be erupting between those aristocrats of high brow journalism, the New Yorker and Poetry. More accurately, it is a new skirmish in an ongoing war, the first salvos of which were fired in the 2006 essay American Poetry in the New Century, written by John Barr, President of the Poetry Foundation. 

Last month an article by Dana Goodyear, attacking the Poetry Foundation for its supposed “consumerization” of poetry, appeared in the New Yorker. I remember reading it at the time and finding it a little unnecessary, given that Mr. Barr’s article, five months old at that point, had already generated so much comment and discussion. Sure, $200 million (the Ruth Lilly bequest to Poetry) is a large sum to entrust to one journal. Yes, Mr. Barr said some unsupported things about MFA programs that MFA teachers and graduates did not find very palatable. But hadn’t we all agreed to disagree and get on with writing the poetry?

The New Yorker was good enough to print a response from Mr. Barr in their most recent issue, in which he defended the work of the Poetry Foundation but managed somewhat impressively to avoid escalating the conflict by offering any direct criticism of Ms. Goodyear or the journal for which she works. And that, I thought, would be that.

Not so. In this weekend’s New York Times Book Review there appears another defence of the Poetry Foundation, written by David Orr. It is a fine and incisive critique of Ms. Goodyear’s article, calling the piece “a slick production whose craftsmanship any critic would respect.” Unfortunately, it sprays around a few bullets of its own. Even more unfortunately most bystanders would probably admit under pressure that some of those bullets are right on target.

I have had a subscription to the New Yorker for about six months now. It is an excellent magazine, and I feel infinitely better informed about current affairs since I started reading it. I confess I have noted in the poem selections what Mr. Orr calls an “even more questionable…preference for its own junior employees.” One of these is of course Ms. Goodyear herself, whose poems since 2000 have apparently appeared in the New Yorker more than those of “every living American poet laureate except for W.S. Merwin.” The poems in the New Yorker rarely appeal to me, with some fine exceptions. I don’t buy the journal for the poetry, but I find the presence of poetry within its pages very reassuring.

It is easy for me to be sanguine about an unsurprising nepotism in the upper echelons of poetry publishers, because I have realistically no chance of having a poem published therein. However, I am less sanguine about the escalation of this debate. I fear it is far too likely to turn into a bloody shooting match between the New Yorker and Poetry, which can only harm poetry’s image among our non-poetry oriented intelligentsia, while at the same time alienating both journals further from grass roots poets.

Today I read at Espresso Joe’s in Keyport, NJ for the Traveling Poets, a series hosted by the admirable Reena Heenan. Maybe the fact that there was standing room only in the coffee shop was down to Ms. Heenan’s habit (recommended first, I believe, by Dana Gioia is HIS seminal essay “Can Poetry Matter?”) of billing one music act with three poets. However, it is worth noting that I sold three chapbooks (and could have sold four had I brought more than three with me) and one poem. Yes, someone came up to me after the reading and insisted on ‘buying’ my reading copy of “The Giant Walk-Through Heart” for $1, after ascertaining it wasn’t in the chapbook. One of the women who bought a chapbook told me breathlessly that she felt every word I had written was as she would have written it for herself.

So in conclusion I would like to make these statements:

To Mr. Barr: I believe at a grass roots level poetry does have its public and is addressing it.

To Ms. Goodyear: $200 million spent on poetry in any way, shape or form is better than $200 million spent sending more young men and women to Iraq.

To Mr. Orr: I believe you are an excellent critic. Could I ask you to consider whether poetry would be better served if you refrained from applying that critical talent so wholeheartedly to one of the few mainstream current affairs journals who still regularly publish it?

March 7, 2007

Writing & Motherhood

Filed under: Family Stuff, Poetry — Anna M Evans @ 5:20 pm

This morning at breakfast I read an article in the New Yorker by Deborah Copaken Kogan which moved me to tears. The piece is a brave account of her struggle to accommodate her ten year old son’s desire to become a child actor, a desire unusual in that he appears to have accomplished it with ease. But what is more remarkable is perhaps that Ms. Kogan had a previous life as a combat photographer, and after publishing a book about her experiences she now has a novel forthcoming.

It is hard to combine motherhood with any sort of career. To combine motherhood with writing can be particularly excruciating, because at their worst both jobs generate the most extreme form of negative feedback there is: rejection. Most of the time, of course, both jobs generate no kind of feedback whatsoever, and that, in conjunction with their conflicting demands on time and concentration, can be cumulatively almost as bad.

I am particularly encouraged to see such a piece appear in the New Yorker. If we mothers are ever to achieve recognition (and ideally some form of enfranchisement) for our role, then it is respected journals like the New Yorker who will validate us. I also want to congratulate Ms. Kogan on the insights of her piece, and, as the mother of a nine year old Level 5 Competitive gymnast, I would add my personal congratulations to her on the job she has clearly done to date bringing up Jacob, her son.

On the same subject, I find myself approaching a novel experience this week. My Doctors have discouraged me from attempting a long haul flight at this time, and so on Friday morning my husband will fly to England for eight days, accompanied by both our daughters. Obviously since I began at Bennington we have become accustomed to this length of separation. However, for me to go to Vermont and immerse myself in workshops, lectures and readings for ten days is a very different set up from being left here in the family home. It may well be my first and only opportunity to experience the writing life as a single person, relatively unencumbered by parenthood.

I say relatively, because of course I have various commitments which exist because of my children and continue in their absence. I have to spend the best part of Saturday selling pins and bears at a Gymnastics meet, and then I am working at the school book fair on Monday and Tuesday. Also on Tuesday I have the children’s parent-teacher conferences.

But, this coming Sunday, March 11th, I shall drive to Keyport for a featured reading untrammeled by the need for a babysitter. (3 pm at Espresso Joe’s. Do come if you’re in the area.) On Wednesday I shall drop the dog in kennels and make a flying visit to a friend, and on Friday evening my good friend Rachel has plans to take me to visit the Philly Gayborhood!

I won’t have known such liberty since 1997.

March 3, 2007

Attention Please America!

Filed under: Citizens at last! — Anna M Evans @ 11:49 am

Last night Major Jackson, a poet I am fortunate to call a friend, was up for an NAACP Image award in Poetry. (The book in question, Hoops, is brilliant. Read it! No excuses.)

The event was televised for the first time ever on Fox, so once I had returned from an earlier commitment at the school, I tuned in. Of course Major had warned me the Literary Awards were unlikely to be filmed. No surprises there. I’m sure that the Poetry award has about the same status as the Best Credit Sequence in a Short Animated Documentary does at the Oscars. However, it was good to pick up the ambience of the event and see the glamorous people collect their awards. I hoped they might do a little summary of the minor awards at some point but no dice. I was impressed that Bono got the Chairman’s Award, although a little miffed that more coverage was given to Prince reading a poem about the environment than was given to the actual Poetry award, but no matter.

Here’s the thing though. As soon as the program was over I came online to try and find out who had won the Poetry Award, and there was NOTHING. Actually, last night there was nothing at all online to show that the NAACP Awards had even occurred–no headline news, no link from Fox or even from the NAACP website itself.

I felt sure I’d have more luck this morning, and indeed, there is now a news article available online. Notice I said ‘a’ news article. In fact, it would appear there is only one, although it has been widely syndicated. It’s a broadsweep piece, which means naturally no mention of the Poetry award. I hoped perhaps a short summary might have made it into the late edition of the Saturday New York Times, but I hoped wrong.

I finally got an email from Major himself this morning, telling me how fantastic the event was, but that Maya Angelou won.

Now listen up, America. I’m not into the Oscars much, but I do know that you couldn’t possibly have gone online late last Sunday night/Monday morning and NOT found a myriad of articles containing everything you needed to know. I’m sure that hundreds of eager Entertainment bloggers were poised at their keyboards typing in the winners even while they were still making their tearful acceptance speeches. I’m almost positive that the Monday papers contained a full listing of winners AND photos thereof.

So, don’t you think you ought to have paid a little more attention to what went on in Los Angeles last night? I don’t know. Anyone would think this was about race, or something…

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